Embedded deep into the human psyche is a constant state of ‘waiting’.
Why is this?
Well, because the human mind cannot comprehend the infinite present moment, it cannot comprehend pure freedom.
So the mind creates the future for it to stay alive, hence the reason the collective mind is in a state of always waiting on something.
Don’t be confused, all “waiting” is the state of being impatient.
The mind cannot wait get to the next moment and until you become conscious, you can live your whole life in this state of waiting no matter what kind of accomplishments or achievements you acquire.
There are two essential versions of “waiting.” small scale and large scale waiting.
Let’s start with the examples of small scale waiting that most of us have at some point experienced.
Small Scale Waiting
Waiting in line at a store.
Whether you’re grocery shopping, shopping for clothes or simply at a gas station to pick up a coffee you stand in line projecting the payment so you can finally get on with your day.
Waiting in traffic is another really common one. You could be waiting on a train, in a traffic jam, for road construction, you name it.
Have you ever driven somewhere and been so on auto pilot that you barely even knew that you were driving?
But you still got there so according to the mind in the moment of waiting, that’s what matters.
Getting “there” is the mind’s number one priority.
Waiting on someone to get ready….
Usually it’s about a husband waiting on his wife to shower, put makeup on, design her hair, pick out her outfit, and the list goes on, while the husband has been ready for an hour and is ready to get on with it.
It may be when you have been late for work and you are racing against time. In the past when I got up late for work, I would have MAJOR panic attacks on my way to getting to work as quickly as possible.
Food delivery when you are starving and that fast food is not going so fast, it’s taking forever and its when you feel you can’t possibly wait any longer that you’re going to chew out the food delivery guy.
It’s waiting for Friday to come so you can collect your paycheck and enjoy the weekend. People despise Monday because it’s the furthest work day of the week from Friday.
And the list goes on, waiting for the microwave to be done for food, waiting for a text message, for next weeks’ paycheck, being put on hold on the phone and so on.
Usually the seemingly less significant or less important stuff is just the thing we need to hurry up and get out of the way.
Then you have the much larger scale stuff.
Large Scale Waiting
You’re going to be getting a huge raise in 6 months that is going to help take care of a lot of bills.
You have a planned trip somewhere super warm next August, and right now there is a blizzard of 20 inches of snow in the middle of November.
You are an entrepreneur and have major dreams that you cannot wait to accomplish.
For an entrepreneur this could be million dollar cars, million dollar mansions, to be famous, to provide great things for your family…etc.
You are moving out town for good in 3-6 months to start a “new” life.
You’re retiring in 5 years and finally will be free from having to be a slave to your job for good.
The Psychological Pain That Comes with Waiting
Now that you get the gist on what small and large scale waiting are, let’s discuss why “waiting” is also causing deep agony within.
It is because most of the people on the planet are not aware of the timeless dimension within.
This is why a good portion of the human race suffers. They are stuck in this dimension of time; they are slave to time, and they have no idea that there is a way to freedom.
It’s the awareness of now.
Most people think of the “now” as in this second, but this second is so fleeting when could you ever actually get a hold of the present moment sustainably?
The point is you cannot, the present moment is the timeless dimension, no matter what the clock says.
Nothing has ever happened or will ever happen not in this moment. This means that, even as the clock time passes in the physical dimension, the present moment exists regardless.
Instead seeing the present moment as a component of time, begin to see right now as awareness, awareness of your inner energy body that is alive.
You have clock time and then you have awareness. You have awareness and then you have clock time.
Clock time is a measurement of how many 24-hour days we have on this planet until physical death does us part.
The present moment, however, because it is not apart of time, is awareness of the timeless as us. And awareness is eternal, is does not know birth and it does not know death.
When this awareness, the present moment (you), becomes aware of itself (the timeless dimension you) you can then feel the only complete freedom that is existence itself.
Because what you are in the totality is the timeless dimension; when you move away from yourself, you begin to feel pain, emotional pain, anxiety, stress, depression, and the list goes on.
Which is why when you wait, deep within, your mind is telling you that when I can FINALLY get on with life, then I can be free.
Once I get this raise, go on this vacation, get my insignificant errands accomplished then I can finally relax.
This grand illusion that has been widely accepted is why the average mind suffers, average mind as in all of the minds combined, or the collective mind.
You can only relax in the awareness of your presence. The human mind is not yet fully aware that its breath is the most significant thing to be grateful for.
Being alive has become sort of a cliché because it seems normal to be “alive.”
But TRUE aliveness is felt in the deep timeless you. It is felt in the awareness of your own feeling presence.
Going forward we are still going to project to the future for practical use, but the moment you begin to dwell on the future is the moment you begin to suffer.
When your mind is saying “I can’t wait,” then you sit and wait and stir in deep subtle pain.
Whenever you believe that your pure freedom is somewhere in the future in a certain situation, circumstance, person or material, remember these words here from Eckhart Tolle in The Power of Now.
“Those who have not found their true wealth, which is the radiant joy of being (Feeling presence) and the deep, unshakable peace that comes with it, are beggars, even if they have great material wealth. They are looking outside for scraps of pleasure or fulfillment, for validation, security, or love, while they have a treasure within that not only includes all of those things but is infinitely greater than anything the world can offer.”
I want you now to take this and every time you find yourself projecting and dwelling on the future to use that pain and transmute it into awareness, into feeling presence.